久しぶり

あなたがいなくて寂しいです

Today is already 23rd of Feb 2018. 

Whenever I log into this shameful pathetic blog, I feel embarrassing for myself.

For being such a baka girl. There's no use for you to chase over someone who will never look back.

Never put any high expectations on that kind of people.

Life goes on, you have to keep moving forward.

This is going to be my last post that is related to you, Okimoto Hajime.

I don't give a damn either you read it or not.

I'm no longer that girl that you used to know. Even if someday you are coming back with that cold attitude, I would't mind and I don't care. However, thank you for being one of the wake up calls that I received at the moment. I appreciate all the things that spitted out from you plus with your cold attitude that annoyed me for most of the time. I do believe you are doing well on achieving your dream. Go ahead, don't ever look back. Live to the fullest, find someone that able to take care after you better than I do. Go fulfill your dream. Go, repay your granny kindness. Go and become a good person. I'm over you. This is real, this is going to be the last time I will be posting about you.

I don't have any intention on making any new blog because I'm way too busy. If I have the urge to create, I'll do so but it will be none of your business. 

I guess that's all. I can never tell you this in person because you're ghost that disappear and begone forever from me. 

I have to do this in order to keep moving forward and forget you.

I'll be meaningless to you and same goes to you. You'll be so meaningless to me even though you were the best thing that ever happened to me when I was a foolish girl.

But meeting you was great, in this social media world.

I wouldn't regret.

not trying to be offensive but I know you will understand why I said so.

I still keep your words that you said when I was gone.

That made me realize I cannot play with the fire if I don't intend on cooling it with love.

Thanks for showing me the world. Thanks for being a real one.

If you read this, it means I'm letting go every each of our memories in the past. I've found the cartoon that you said having the same cheeks as I am. It was Gnomeo and Juliet something.

I've watched the movie already. It was great. Oh yes, I miss granny so much. I'm so grateful to her for used to accept the old me. It totally feels great when you get acknowledged by someone that loves you.

I don't know what will brings me in the future. I hope for the good things to happen. 

I really hope I'll be able to meet a person that capable on dwelling this miserable soul patiently.

With Allah wills. 

I guess I have to get going. So, Hajime. if you ever intend on reading this, I am solemnly wishing you the best of luck in the future! and of course, I never forget your birthday, dumbass, Happy belated birthday Okimoto Hajime. 

farewell.

-15/02

-03/10