Immature enough.

I'm sorry for my last post. It was an immature action by me and it should not be in this blog actually.
I was stressed out on that day but I am okay now. Perhaps.

So, what is going on ? It has been few days since my last post right?
I am busy with my work & sometimes I don't remember on updating anything because hehehe
I am in the middle of something which I'm so attached with my love.

GUESS WHO IS MY LOVE?
http://naruto.oasgames.com/en/play (SERVER 106 - UZUMAKI SHIWASE) ← let me introduce yguys to my faithful partner, my Naruto online game haha

yes, I am not a fully gamer but I love to play games. Any kind of games.
Bring me to the arcade & I'm going to rock your day! jkjkjk
I'm going to the arcade with my family, ONLY.
Because they are too precious to be with. So we are having fun at the arcade place but since we have some financial problem nowadays, we rarely having fun.
It is tough because I literally have a family problem and of course it cannot be told in a public forum like this but I just can say I have such a big family. Siblings from the same mother but different father but I'm still grateful because at the very least, I still have a family where I can share the joy with. Because not most people in this world can feel this kind of experience, experience of having a family.

Because of that, I've planned out so many things. I will do my best in my studies. I will struggle till the end, Achieve the target and get a nice job to live a proper life.

Oh yeah, actually, before I started attaching myself to the game, I used to spend my leisure time with sleep. Maybe we can call it as a short nap AHAHAHA ( My mental is tired lol cme on gimme some support) Having migraine is sucks. Like seriously, I can't remember a thing. How do victims of migraine manage themselves with this? Anyone? every time I have migraine, I proudly tell them that I need some rest because I'm sick and I'm off to bed.

BUT

it is not easy to sleep for these migraine people :'( (I FEEL YGUYS.)

You can feel the aching on the head and it feels twitching on the eyes like your eyes are going to burst out in anytime before going to bed and also after waking up from the night mare. i am telling you guys the truth :'( the aching is so unbearable. 

I started to realize that I have this stuff when I was 12 years old. During that year, it was getting so obvious, I mean the symptom. and hm yeah I was in r/s with someone and yeah, got into a big and a small fight did affect my healthiness. I got migraine every time we both gone mad like crazy HAHAHA I was a stupid girl back then. ( I bet, I am still but I'm okay. Put the past behind me)
so, I often admitted myself to the hospital HAHA LIKE WTHECK.

I was getting better days by days till 2015, I finally managed to have my own spectacles because I had been advised to get my own spectacles to prevent getting any migraine. It did work but not 100% work & I did know that I had something in me where prevent me from being so active in the day because of the tonsils. Sore tonsils in me was getting bigger and I succeed removing that thing last year before I take my spm. It was so terrifying! I failed during my trial. That was the bad result I ever had. Imagine yourself getting an A , 3B, 4C and 1F. THAT F RUINED EVERYTHING. I couldn't use my trial result for registering myself to any good colleges/universities outside there. But I hadn't given up, I worked even harder during the very last examination in my high school year.

Facing few days after operating to remove the sore tonsils in me was so tiring, terrifying and dying as fudge. I couldnt talk BUT the doctor forced me to talk LIKE MAN I CANNOT TALK FOR REAL YOU IDIOT. because I didnt know what was happening to me, of course, I was fainted for the whole 2 hours AND I WOKE UP SMELLING SOMETHING BURN IN MY THROAT AND IT WAS THAT THING.
YUCKS!!!!!! I had to stay in the hospital like 5 days and guess what, I needed to attend my graduation day the day after I reached home. IMAGINE HOW I COMMUNICATE WITH MY FREAKING FRIENDS WITH NO VOICE AT ALL. I couldnt laugh and guess what, I couldnt eat any kind of solid food, spicy food, hot food, ANY FOOD because even your mother have cooked your favourite meal to death, you WONT able to eat it like a normal person. Trust me. That burning smell in your throat makes you feel so disgust over the food :( but that was my favourite food. see? terrifying right? I ate oat like for the whole 5 days AND MOST DYING PART :  I COULDNT SLEEP AT NIGHT FOR A WEEK. Because it felt something sharp in your throat (they used laser to remove the tonsils. that's why) I needed to spit out my saliva, I needed to gurgle the painkiller in the form of liquid. It did make me feel relief for a few hours and I needed to repeat the same things like a week or 2 weeks. It was so unbearable. ugh NEVER TRUST WHEN THEY TELL YOU THAT YOU WILL BE OKAY AFTER 3 DAYS THEY HAVE REMOVED THE TONSILS. THEY AINT LIE BUT THE FACTS THAT THEY GIVE TO YOU ARE WRONG.

The older you are, the more time will be taken to be fully recovered. Basically, it takes 3 weeks.
The younger you are, the fewer time will be taken to be fully recovered. It takes 3-5 days.

Trust me. & guess what! The school officer had called my mother and asked when could I come back because I had missed so many classes and homework. so, after a week I stayed at home, I headed back to my boarding school and I needed to take care of myself because I wasnt fully recovered yet. I had my oat with me. I made it for my breakfast and also for my lunch. Ouch hm but the best thing was I MANAGED TO LOSE MANY WEIGHT AND I WAS SO PROUD OF IT. but after getting fully recovered, I gained my weight again. It couldnt be helped. I guess that's it for today.
I'm so sleepy.



Good night fellas!
Do add me on Naruto Online Game.
xoxo